Wednesday, April 14, 2010
April
Well on the 10th I experienced for the first time a new life come into this world.
Lilly came, Lilly is Kalanis new baby sister and that makes her mine also just by association. I got to hold her just two days after she was born. It was a feeling I cannot describe. She is a new life and I'll get to see her grow up from that one special day that I got to hold her at a precious ...two days old.
p.s
Dear, Lily
Kalani and I have talked it over and well your name is pretty and all but were going to call you Kainoa when you get older you will understand.
So Kainoa I love you and can't wait to see you again!
So with this wonderful life that just came into this world, not to bring it down because I could not be more filled with joy over her
I could not help this new life making me think of death and how when you get one you loose one...
I just prepare thats all.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
you confuse me
and it makes me feel angry, and I think horrible thoughts.
Your not horrible, but annoying.
Beautiful, yet stupid.
I love you and I hate you.
You seem to have no reality and that makes me jealous because I was brought up with "reality" shoved deep down in me... so deep I don't think I can ever get it all out.
day in and out ..and to this day. Reality in my face!
You play and play and play.
A part of me wishes it will hit you really hard in the face and even maybe scar you one day and you will see and feel this reality I live with.
You and your playing annoys me to my bones
Your beauty has my love
and right now I wanna smack you in the face.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
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